Oh and by the way, I've also re-prioritized and given up ALL my volunteer commitments to focus on the important things....like my marriage! And eventually, starting my business! Chasing my dreams! Creating the life that I've always wanted!
Sometimes, it takes a life altering experience to shake things up a little. This thing will go one of two ways....it will either destroy me or make me stronger. It will all depend on which path I take.
I know someone else who has gone through this thing and she's stuck...she's been stuck for probably between 10 to 15 years....I don't want to end up that way so I'm seeking some professional advice and getting some counseling! I've never been a quitter and don't think I should start now! Surrounding myself with a strong support system will help too! It's got to!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
A brick to the head!
Well, the last time I posted...that was 4 days from when my life changed forever. It's funny how one never knows what will happen or how much your life can change in an instant! God knows I didn't!
I was busy doing a project (as usual) and decided to look at my emails on facebook....received one that changed my life forever. I will never be the same again! It changed my reality as I knew it. A secret was revealed to me about something that happened back in 2005....it devastated me. Now I have to take another look at things and see where I go from there. I kept in contact with this person hoping they would reveal more...and they did, three weeks later, I received bomb #2 because the whole truth was not revealed.
Now, I feel like I'm in a dream and that I can't wake up...God I wish I could. None of this was supposed to have taken place but it did. I can't change the past, I can only accept it and change the things that I can. Doesn't make it any easier. Someone I trusted destroyed me. I will never be the same again. I have to now pick up the pieces and try to fix the shattered pieces of my heart!
On facebook there's an application that sends you daily things that God wants you to know...I found this one to be rather interesting. It went like this:
On this day, God wants you to know that your pains are God's way to rouse you from slumber. Pain is your wake-up call to awaken, to look deeper into yourself, to adjust the course of your life. God tries to be as gentle as possible, and only if you ignore the call does the pain get stronger.
Did He have to throw a whole brick? lol! No wonder I keep experiencing headaches! Now I have to re-evaluate things and see where I go from there! One thing I know for sure....I want to leave my job before the year is out! If I can survive this thing...I know I can pretty much do anything....and things aren't scaring me like they used to. Before I was almost too careful....staying within my comfort zone and getting too comfortable....now, it's time to expand those walls and push outside the box!
I was busy doing a project (as usual) and decided to look at my emails on facebook....received one that changed my life forever. I will never be the same again! It changed my reality as I knew it. A secret was revealed to me about something that happened back in 2005....it devastated me. Now I have to take another look at things and see where I go from there. I kept in contact with this person hoping they would reveal more...and they did, three weeks later, I received bomb #2 because the whole truth was not revealed.
Now, I feel like I'm in a dream and that I can't wake up...God I wish I could. None of this was supposed to have taken place but it did. I can't change the past, I can only accept it and change the things that I can. Doesn't make it any easier. Someone I trusted destroyed me. I will never be the same again. I have to now pick up the pieces and try to fix the shattered pieces of my heart!
On facebook there's an application that sends you daily things that God wants you to know...I found this one to be rather interesting. It went like this:
On this day, God wants you to know that your pains are God's way to rouse you from slumber. Pain is your wake-up call to awaken, to look deeper into yourself, to adjust the course of your life. God tries to be as gentle as possible, and only if you ignore the call does the pain get stronger.
Did He have to throw a whole brick? lol! No wonder I keep experiencing headaches! Now I have to re-evaluate things and see where I go from there! One thing I know for sure....I want to leave my job before the year is out! If I can survive this thing...I know I can pretty much do anything....and things aren't scaring me like they used to. Before I was almost too careful....staying within my comfort zone and getting too comfortable....now, it's time to expand those walls and push outside the box!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Update
Hello all....just to update you on what's been happening, we've had no choice but to put the sale of our house on hold...at least till the spring. We will probably sell in March/April now. It was just way too impossible to have it ready by the end of October with all the work that still needed to be done to it. I was going to be a home stager at one time (and may still be again, who knows) and I know what the house should look like in order to attract the buyers.
There were also too many things going wrong so I took it as a sign that this wasn't the right time for this to be happening! Everything happens for a reason, after all! Right?
I am still working on the house to prepare it because spring will indeed be here before I know it. So, for now, I'm painting and organizing. On top of everything else that I've been doing...I still have to work full time right now but I also have some projects to work on. I have to make two elf costumes for someone for December 6th and I also have Advent banners to make for a church. So, I'm chaotically keeping busy!
I must say though that lately, I've been playing with the idea of possibly seeing if I can work 4 days per week and try to work on my own business on the 5th day. This way, I could get the best of both world's. If I can convince my boss (who knows that I don't want to stay there forever), plus see about focusing on it, that maybe, I might have a better chance of making it happen sooner rather than later. I'll keep you posted on what I decide to do or if I can convince my boss! If I do this, I will want to do it for possibly January...take the leap. I'll play with some numbers and see where it takes me!
I'm excited about the possibilities! Hopefully, all will work out in the end!
There were also too many things going wrong so I took it as a sign that this wasn't the right time for this to be happening! Everything happens for a reason, after all! Right?
I am still working on the house to prepare it because spring will indeed be here before I know it. So, for now, I'm painting and organizing. On top of everything else that I've been doing...I still have to work full time right now but I also have some projects to work on. I have to make two elf costumes for someone for December 6th and I also have Advent banners to make for a church. So, I'm chaotically keeping busy!
I must say though that lately, I've been playing with the idea of possibly seeing if I can work 4 days per week and try to work on my own business on the 5th day. This way, I could get the best of both world's. If I can convince my boss (who knows that I don't want to stay there forever), plus see about focusing on it, that maybe, I might have a better chance of making it happen sooner rather than later. I'll keep you posted on what I decide to do or if I can convince my boss! If I do this, I will want to do it for possibly January...take the leap. I'll play with some numbers and see where it takes me!
I'm excited about the possibilities! Hopefully, all will work out in the end!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Selling my house to make room for my new future!
Well, after waiting all summer, I finally came to the conclusion that if I want my dream of owning and running my own business in my home, I need to sell my house! I wish I would have come up with this a lot sooner but I have to believe that things happen when they are suppose to. I only hope that I will be able to get all the work done that is needed to get my house up and ready for sale! There is a lot of work to be done!
I have always wanted my own business and have always wanted the convenience of doing it from home to make things easier for me to run my household and still have income coming in...and in order to do both, I need to sell my house. My present house is way too small and not in a convenient location for doing what I want to do with my business. Plus, it would be really nice to find something that represents what I want for my business. Since that is costumes and themed party planning, I'm looking for something Victorian-ish!
I find that lately, my business is beginning to take on a life of it's own...it's transitioning. This is all so exciting for me. I guess I wasn't ready before but feel quite ready now. Despite having so many houses on the market out there right now...I'm hoping that everything will happen for the right reasons and that it will all become a reality very quickly and very soon!
I'm aiming for the first week of October...here's hoping that it becomes a reality. Got a fair bit of work done outside this weekend...also working on the bathroom and trying to modernize it somewhat...will be glad when it's done since we only have the one bathroom! Anyway, will keep you all posted as to the progress! Moving on and moving forward! Woohooo!!
I have always wanted my own business and have always wanted the convenience of doing it from home to make things easier for me to run my household and still have income coming in...and in order to do both, I need to sell my house. My present house is way too small and not in a convenient location for doing what I want to do with my business. Plus, it would be really nice to find something that represents what I want for my business. Since that is costumes and themed party planning, I'm looking for something Victorian-ish!
I find that lately, my business is beginning to take on a life of it's own...it's transitioning. This is all so exciting for me. I guess I wasn't ready before but feel quite ready now. Despite having so many houses on the market out there right now...I'm hoping that everything will happen for the right reasons and that it will all become a reality very quickly and very soon!
I'm aiming for the first week of October...here's hoping that it becomes a reality. Got a fair bit of work done outside this weekend...also working on the bathroom and trying to modernize it somewhat...will be glad when it's done since we only have the one bathroom! Anyway, will keep you all posted as to the progress! Moving on and moving forward! Woohooo!!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Yay!! I have Inventory!
Yes folks! I now have some inventory! On Sunday, at church, one of the ladies who promised me some inventory for my party planning business, came through for me! She gave me 24 centerpieces with candles, an archway, table cloths, chair covers (there are four of these but I can use them as a pattern and make others), mini-lights and so much more! All for FREE! That's the best part!
I moved it all into my work room and put it all on my shelving I have in there. So you see, this is so great! It's the beginnings of my business! I also have lots of mini-lights too! More stuff I got for free when we went into the endings of a Christmas in July sale that was beginning to pack up. They offered me all the lights I wanted for free! Bonus!
So far, I have quite the collection started! This makes me really excited! It makes it really hard to be at my J-O-B without thinking about the work I'd rather be doing right now! Which is organizing and setting up my workshop. Plus, I have shelving to put up, clothes racks to put together and put up...a worktable to set up...I want to get busy making costumes and getting that inventory going! I have this incredible urge to work on all that but alas....I'm stuck here at work, lol! Oh well...I can dream for now, I guess and make some wonderful plans for my escape! Tee Hee Hee!!! or should I say Muahahahaha!!! *rubs hands together with twinkle in eye*
I moved it all into my work room and put it all on my shelving I have in there. So you see, this is so great! It's the beginnings of my business! I also have lots of mini-lights too! More stuff I got for free when we went into the endings of a Christmas in July sale that was beginning to pack up. They offered me all the lights I wanted for free! Bonus!
So far, I have quite the collection started! This makes me really excited! It makes it really hard to be at my J-O-B without thinking about the work I'd rather be doing right now! Which is organizing and setting up my workshop. Plus, I have shelving to put up, clothes racks to put together and put up...a worktable to set up...I want to get busy making costumes and getting that inventory going! I have this incredible urge to work on all that but alas....I'm stuck here at work, lol! Oh well...I can dream for now, I guess and make some wonderful plans for my escape! Tee Hee Hee!!! or should I say Muahahahaha!!! *rubs hands together with twinkle in eye*
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Getting Excited!
Well, since my last post, things have been divinely moving forward for me whether I want it to or not! I guess you could say, I'm just along for the ride!
I have been talking to different people about my dream of owning my own business and when I tell them what I'd like to do...they get all excited and think it's a good idea! So...that leaves me to believe that this should be done! I've also been reading a lot of Ken Robert's articles on his blog, MildlyCreative.com and have been very inspired by what I have read. A couple of the ones that really stood out for me was the one that says you have to be clear about what it is you want to do otherwise how can you convince someone else....AND...your intention to make your dream happen....if I don't have intention in my life regarding my dream, how can I honestly say that I want to make it happen! He is so right!
So, my son is starting school on August 17th at the Carpentry Trade Center and needed to assure the funding for it...so my husband took him to the bank and got him the loan for his course...but while he was there, he talked to the lady at the bank about each of our business ideas and she loved it...she loved them so much that she gave us a business package to get us pointed in the right direction! Can't wait to dive into that!
Also, I was talking to some ladies at church about my business idea and what I have done for the teens in our community and they want to get me to decorate for their social get togethers as well as let me advertise any time I do throw a dance or party for the teens! One lady is supposed to give me some items that she was going to use when she was thinking of starting a Wedding Decorating Business....for free! And I had another girl tell me that she's going to give me an archway after she's done with it in June next year! She said she won't have any use for it! Plus, I talked to someone else who said their sister did Weddings until she got sick 3 years ago and can talk to her about selling me what she has plus get me the names of her suppliers! So you see, I have lots to think about!
My idea is to have a costume/puppet and themed party planning shop...I can rent costumes as well as sell them. Also, decorate for themed parties as well as weddings! The consensus seems to be telling me that there is a need for this business. Someone else even said that their sister rents out ballgowns for proms and weddings and such and stays quite busy even though it's a small town! I know of one or two around here but for some strange reason, they aren't listed in the phone book or advertised very well...they rely mainly on word of mouth! I'm really excited about the prospects of what's going to happen! I will keep you posted as to what happens! So stay tuned because it looks like things are going to happen for me! Woohoo!!
I have been talking to different people about my dream of owning my own business and when I tell them what I'd like to do...they get all excited and think it's a good idea! So...that leaves me to believe that this should be done! I've also been reading a lot of Ken Robert's articles on his blog, MildlyCreative.com and have been very inspired by what I have read. A couple of the ones that really stood out for me was the one that says you have to be clear about what it is you want to do otherwise how can you convince someone else....AND...your intention to make your dream happen....if I don't have intention in my life regarding my dream, how can I honestly say that I want to make it happen! He is so right!
So, my son is starting school on August 17th at the Carpentry Trade Center and needed to assure the funding for it...so my husband took him to the bank and got him the loan for his course...but while he was there, he talked to the lady at the bank about each of our business ideas and she loved it...she loved them so much that she gave us a business package to get us pointed in the right direction! Can't wait to dive into that!
Also, I was talking to some ladies at church about my business idea and what I have done for the teens in our community and they want to get me to decorate for their social get togethers as well as let me advertise any time I do throw a dance or party for the teens! One lady is supposed to give me some items that she was going to use when she was thinking of starting a Wedding Decorating Business....for free! And I had another girl tell me that she's going to give me an archway after she's done with it in June next year! She said she won't have any use for it! Plus, I talked to someone else who said their sister did Weddings until she got sick 3 years ago and can talk to her about selling me what she has plus get me the names of her suppliers! So you see, I have lots to think about!
My idea is to have a costume/puppet and themed party planning shop...I can rent costumes as well as sell them. Also, decorate for themed parties as well as weddings! The consensus seems to be telling me that there is a need for this business. Someone else even said that their sister rents out ballgowns for proms and weddings and such and stays quite busy even though it's a small town! I know of one or two around here but for some strange reason, they aren't listed in the phone book or advertised very well...they rely mainly on word of mouth! I'm really excited about the prospects of what's going to happen! I will keep you posted as to what happens! So stay tuned because it looks like things are going to happen for me! Woohoo!!
Friday, July 10, 2009
Being Inspired by Others
I have been trying to organize and get some things done before jumping into the heavy planning stages of my business. In the meantime, I have been getting inspired by others who have gone before me and who are doing it right now! Being on Twitter has allowed me to meet some wonderful people and to see what's going on in there businesses! There are some really cool businesses out there not to mention some really great websites!
It really has given me some food for thought to see what I can aspire to. For now, I am just getting inspired and doing as much inspirational reading as I have time for. Summertime is always a busy time and so finding time to get it all done can be challenging at times to say the least! One thing is for certain...I feel determined to reach for this goal because I finally feel like I can grab for it on the shelf.
One of the things that I want to accomplish within the next little while is to flip a couple rooms...by that I mean, I want to switch rooms so that I get more workspace for myself. Right now, my workshop is really small and has been a major dumping ground for anything that doesn't have a spot in our already small home. The other day, while reading someone else's blog on cleaning their office space, they gave me the idea of creating my perfect work area. I need more room and as much as I love that room...it's just way too small to work in. I need to be able to breathe in there and not feel claustrophobic! So, I plan on weaning out a lot of things and then switching everything from one room to the other. I think that it will be a great thing for me because it will give me the room I desperately need to work in as well as the motivation to want to go in there to work!
I'm feeling excited about all the prospects that I can feel for my future...I can't wait to get started! It's growing harder and harder to sit behind a desk day in and day out instead of doing my own thing! All this inspiration that I'm getting from others is motivating me to work harder at achieving my dreams! Woohoo! Can't wait to make a go of it!
It really has given me some food for thought to see what I can aspire to. For now, I am just getting inspired and doing as much inspirational reading as I have time for. Summertime is always a busy time and so finding time to get it all done can be challenging at times to say the least! One thing is for certain...I feel determined to reach for this goal because I finally feel like I can grab for it on the shelf.
One of the things that I want to accomplish within the next little while is to flip a couple rooms...by that I mean, I want to switch rooms so that I get more workspace for myself. Right now, my workshop is really small and has been a major dumping ground for anything that doesn't have a spot in our already small home. The other day, while reading someone else's blog on cleaning their office space, they gave me the idea of creating my perfect work area. I need more room and as much as I love that room...it's just way too small to work in. I need to be able to breathe in there and not feel claustrophobic! So, I plan on weaning out a lot of things and then switching everything from one room to the other. I think that it will be a great thing for me because it will give me the room I desperately need to work in as well as the motivation to want to go in there to work!
I'm feeling excited about all the prospects that I can feel for my future...I can't wait to get started! It's growing harder and harder to sit behind a desk day in and day out instead of doing my own thing! All this inspiration that I'm getting from others is motivating me to work harder at achieving my dreams! Woohoo! Can't wait to make a go of it!
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